I visited an old haunt of mine, a coffee shop I used to frequent a few years ago. I once was a regular there, but moved on because the crowd is mostly young folks -- teens, mostly -- and the shop allows smoking. I had business a few blocks away, and I'm friends with the people who own the place, so I stopped in for a quick cuppa.
And I saw a bastard I used to know.
I try my best not judge people. I've had many friends and aquaintances that were hardcore criminals: con artists, drug addicts, prostitutes and even murderers. In my line of work, you have to deal with folks who have done bad things and still treat them with decency and respect.
But there are people I have a difficult time accepting: abusers. I'm not talking about people who blow up one day and do something stupid; I'm talking about those who systematically seek out someone they can exercise power over and then commence verbal, sexual and/or physical abuse of that person.
There are a lot of reasons for my inability to tolerate this type of criminal, but I think the biggest one is that I don't believe that most of them ever really change. With most criminals, I believe that there is a chance of reformation, but abusers -- I just don't see it.
And this guy is an abuser. I know this because he battered a friend of mine for a long time. He lived with her, took her money and beat her up.
Repeatedly.
As I said, he's a bastard.
She broke free of him, and moved far away years ago. I lost track of him. He's a low-level criminal -- small-time drugs and violence -- and I assumed that he was in jail or even prison for a while. I haven't seen him in years.
Until this morning, that is. He was sitting at the bar of this coffee shop, working his charm on a young woman who was flattered by the attention.
Now I haven't seen this man in years, as I said before. I have no idea what he's gone through -- maybe he's reformed, maybe he's found Jesus or something.
But I doubt it. He was working her -- therapists call it grooming her with flattery, sensitive talk, gentle laughter and just being the ultimate nice guy. He looks like a thug, but he comes off as a sensitive soul who is tough on the outside. You know the type: the right woman could change him and help the world see that he's really a great guy; he's just misunderstood is all.
I looked him straight in the eye. I sent all kinds of nonverbal messages to him, letting him know that I knew who and what he was.
He wasn't doing anything illegal. He wasn't breaking a law or an ordinance or any written rule. He was just working whatever magic he has to worm his way into another woman's life.
I wanted to pound him. I wanted to tell everyone what I knew, make everyone aware that this is a toxic, dangerous man.
But he wasn't doing anything wrong. All he was doing was drinking coffee, laughing, and making his move on a woman who was definitely interested in him.
I don't believe this man has changed. I know that's judgemental, narrow-minded and unforgiving. But as I watched him -- touching her arm just that way as she leaned into him smiling and laughing -- I thought about my friend and the possiblity that this woman might be next.
I drank my coffee. What to do? I have no authority, no evidence to bring to anyone who has authority, and no proof against him except the past -- and that sick feeling I get in my soul when I watch an abuser work his mark.
There wasn't a lot I could do, so I once again made eye contact with him. I think I connected with him. I like to think that he knew I was totally on to him.
I hope it was enough. I hope that he knew that I remembered him, that someone was aware of his game and that at least one person was watching him. Predators sometimes care about getting caught, and I hope he's one of those.
I hope I did enough.