Not Quite Angry, Fueled By Coffee
I worked last night, which was a mistake. I was snappish to a couple of the customers (they were rude, but normally I can shake it off) because when I feel as nasty as I do at the moment, I have no patience and no humor.

I've decided to leave the job I worked last night. There are a million reasons why, but the latest one is: instead of being home in a vicodin-induced coma, I was sort of forced to work all night and now I can't really go home to rest until about 2 this afternoon. It's just too much.

This morning, I had a doctor's appointment and a job interview. This afternoon I have another doctor's appointment, so I'm not going home until after I get my Vitamin B12 shot. Since I live 24 miles from the clinic I get the shot at, it just seems stupid to make the trip home only to come back again in a couple of hours.

So no I'm sitting in one of my favorite coffee houses, sipping a two-shot breve and typing on a rented computer.

If I had more energy, I'd be angry, but mostly I just feel like a deflated balloon. My interview went well, and I'm pretty sure that they are going to offer me a position.

The problem is that the job may be more trouble than it's worth. If I take it, I'm going to have to shake things up at my 'regular' job in regards to my schedule. This new job pays a very high wage, but it's only for one day per week, with the requirement that I have to make myself available to cover other shifts as needed.

If I stay with it for a while, I can move to a more lucrative schedule and eventually be full time with excellent benefits. The downside is that I have no guarantees for at least a year.

In the big picture, that doesn't sound like a long time, but taking this job will seriously impact my other (full time) work. While there's a delicious piece of Gouda cheese waiting for me at the end of the maze, just being in that maze means that I have to let go of the Velveeta I already have.

But the wheels of this job move slowly, and I have at least a month to figure things out while they do a thorough background check on me, including criminal, credit, and driving records. Drug tests, personality tests and who knows what else have to be done before I have any idea if they are really interested in me at all.

Just about anything can happen in that time.